because it took leaving college to actually decide what I want to "do with my life"
So I know I'm not someone who's been in college for ten years, and I'm not someone who's been out of college for ten years working in their chosen field. But all of these statuses from my friends about starting their last semester in college (CONGRATULATIONS BY THE WAY I LOVE YOU ALL AND GOOD LUCK!!!) have got me thinking..
After graduation from high school I went to RU annnd then I scooted over to VT to try and see if that would help me any. It didn't. Not because I don't like RU or VT. They are both absolutely wonderful schools, not to mention have beautiful campuses and stellar faculty. I met some really awesome people and had a great time at both places, learning new things and going on new adventures. I switched my major several times over those two and a half years of total time that I was actually in class and I wasn't ever happy. I thought I liked what I was doing. Theatre is the exception, but I liked the idea of doing everything else. I liked the idea of being a middle school history teacher. I liked the idea of working in a hotel for the rest of my life, etc. Now with theatre I just loved it all, but it wasn't something that I want to fully commit the rest of my life to. and that's as honest as I can be. I want to have the opportunity to work on shows, of course! I just don't want to feel obligated to.
The first time I left school, it was just for a semester, and I was working for the Barter Theatre Cafe. It was a blast, honestly. That was when I was trying to stick to my theatre roots - and hometown roots! I got to see shows at the Barter for free, talk to active actors and techies on a daily basis.. I even had a personal interview with the casting director and she told me I looked just like Judy Garland. It made my life. I had so much fun. I was happy, but I wasn't about to spend the rest of my life there. Sure, I've dreamed about being on stage at the Barter - more like I dream about being on stage every time I see a show there. I'm not kidding. While watching 9 to 5, I wanted to be Judy. In Avenue Q I wanted to be Kate Monster.. While watching Legally Blonde, the part of Paulette (gasp, not Elle!?) was just calling my name. You get the picture. I was just fun. I really don't know where this point is going now... It was fun watching the shows and just kind of soaking it all in.. but that wasn't good enough for me.
The second time I left school, after spring semester 2013, I somehow landed this job at a daycare. Honestly at first it was just a job "to pay the bills." Because let's be real, at some point, the root of us wanting a job is so that we can have money to be alive. This was my first "real" job working with kids. Yeah, I've been a high school color guard instructor for going on three years now - look at me go! But that's high schoolers. Next to that, the closest thing I've done, other than babysitting, has been spending a few summers working for VBS. That was it.
My mom's a teacher. So you can imagine there have been times that I felt like I wanted to be a teacher just because she is.. but over the last year, I've learned that it's because it's what I actually want to do. I love working with kids. All kids. Babies, three year olds, pre schoolers, elementary school aged kids.. ha, even my high schoolers. Hey sophomores, just let it sink in that I'm at least six years older than you.. Wow okay that's weird. ANYWAY. I have fun with my job. and now I can't wait to go back to college and get a degree in something that I officially know that I want to do.
So if you're a senior in college who's getting ready to graduate this year, congratulations! I wish I could have been like you.... and if you're a freshman in college who thought you knew what you wanted to do, but now you have absolutely no idea because nothing seems appealing, just hang in there. You'll figure something out... it might be two years from now... or maybe it'll be thirty years from now.
Just don't settle.
xoxo
The first time I left school, it was just for a semester, and I was working for the Barter Theatre Cafe. It was a blast, honestly. That was when I was trying to stick to my theatre roots - and hometown roots! I got to see shows at the Barter for free, talk to active actors and techies on a daily basis.. I even had a personal interview with the casting director and she told me I looked just like Judy Garland. It made my life. I had so much fun. I was happy, but I wasn't about to spend the rest of my life there. Sure, I've dreamed about being on stage at the Barter - more like I dream about being on stage every time I see a show there. I'm not kidding. While watching 9 to 5, I wanted to be Judy. In Avenue Q I wanted to be Kate Monster.. While watching Legally Blonde, the part of Paulette (gasp, not Elle!?) was just calling my name. You get the picture. I was just fun. I really don't know where this point is going now... It was fun watching the shows and just kind of soaking it all in.. but that wasn't good enough for me.
The second time I left school, after spring semester 2013, I somehow landed this job at a daycare. Honestly at first it was just a job "to pay the bills." Because let's be real, at some point, the root of us wanting a job is so that we can have money to be alive. This was my first "real" job working with kids. Yeah, I've been a high school color guard instructor for going on three years now - look at me go! But that's high schoolers. Next to that, the closest thing I've done, other than babysitting, has been spending a few summers working for VBS. That was it.
My mom's a teacher. So you can imagine there have been times that I felt like I wanted to be a teacher just because she is.. but over the last year, I've learned that it's because it's what I actually want to do. I love working with kids. All kids. Babies, three year olds, pre schoolers, elementary school aged kids.. ha, even my high schoolers. Hey sophomores, just let it sink in that I'm at least six years older than you.. Wow okay that's weird. ANYWAY. I have fun with my job. and now I can't wait to go back to college and get a degree in something that I officially know that I want to do.
So if you're a senior in college who's getting ready to graduate this year, congratulations! I wish I could have been like you.... and if you're a freshman in college who thought you knew what you wanted to do, but now you have absolutely no idea because nothing seems appealing, just hang in there. You'll figure something out... it might be two years from now... or maybe it'll be thirty years from now.
Just don't settle.
xoxo
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